Full on summer is happening. Right, NOW. This very moment. And it's a crazy thing to me, time. How it floats on through, ever quickly as we let anxious feelings about having to do do do creep in and consume us, distracting us from the moment we're in. When that very moment, THIS very moment, is all that we actually NEED to do. BE in it, that is.
I won't preach on about the necessity of presence and how vital it is to our very existence because, after all, you already know. You just might not remember.
But what I will talk about is the fact that I struggle. We all do. With the very practice. The practice of telling your to-do list to STFU. The practice of acceptance. Accepting that there is no other moment than the one we're in. Instead, we listen to the voice that nags in our mind reminding us all of the oh-so-important things we have to do and then, so, we create for ourselves a sense of anxiousness derived purely from a future focused state of non-being.
This is not my first choice. It's not your either. More, it's a state of programming that tirelessly pulls you in opposite direction from the true you.
I've made major progress in putting that egoic state in check. Carefully observing what comes and goes in this wild mind of mine. Yet, there's always further to progress. Further growing to be had.
There are still times where I step away from now ever so briefly and down the rabbit hole I go. Today, prime example. Coming home from the farm with the boys, chaos ensues as they settle in and begin their typical brotherly exchange, yelling/screaming/tugging/pulling [remember to breathe] and on comes the future projection. i.e. mental chatter “I'm never going to get anything done! I have to... x y z blah blah and so on”.
Here's the best part, I am aware. I am aware that although I haven't been practicing forever, I've been practicing long enough to recognize when I do this to myself, so I stop.
I just stop.
Simple as that.
[Okay, not TOTALLY simple… but you get me.]
In fact, today's episode gave me a brilliant idea.
A few of the self care activities I utilize to nurture prescence include journaling, meditating, yoga, reading etc.
[INSERT LIGHT BULB]
Why aren't I teaching these practices to my boys???
These are practices that are necessary to keeping me sane and moving forward. Evolving.
I mean, sure, they've meditated with me now and again. And yoga, here and there. But IT'S SUMMER.
They're ALL MINE for the next month or so. The perfect time and space to create a beautiful ritual, routine, whatever you wanna call it, all our own. One that gives them the same set of tools that I find so healing.
So, remember that brilliant idea?! Summer Challenge accepted. I'm gonna zen these boys out. In fact, it's already begun. Moments after my trip into the future to-do list we had a solid 45 minutes of quite time, music only and just us three. [Vetiver diffusing, of course!] <3
All it took? A few belly breaths and… Coming back to now.